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im in a great mood now, ive had a grrreat evening first talking to all my swedish friends and family, talking to dale, then talking to hannah, talking to matt, talking to fred, talking to rhiannon and finaylly talking to bc. i love talking. im a bit too talkative. but im okay with it. cuz im great at talking. i can talk in different languages. in different speeds. with different accentes. about different things. through different things. with different people. to myself. im talking to myself right now, about how much i need to go to the toilet. man i need a weeeee. i need to peeeeeee.

det känns bättre nu. för jag har fantastiska vänner och ett otroligt bra sinne för musik (fjortismusik, fettvärdmusik, julsånger och sen massa bra musik oxå). att bara få skriva av sig hjälper många gånger, inte till någon speciell. men att få ner sina tankar kan vara en lättnad i sig. jag vet nu vad jag kan göra och det har jag gjort, eller delar utav det i alla fall, nu är det bara att vänta och se.

ive been to school today, and the island is freezing at the moment so there is no point in doing anything really. at home now, trying to do homework. but its not going well..

have been talking to fredrik this afternoon, you just gotta love that boy. jag saknar dig finis. och ja du är slightly retarderad ibland med dina episka skämt och idéer. im going out now to meet up with hannah, sean and fishman (i think). SE YOU LATER !

thx izzzza this made me laugh.

after hanging eating a delicious dinner at olivos we went back to mcd to say hi to our friends and in this case our friends are fred, joe, peter, sean and fishman. we talked for a while, got some baloons, ate some sweets and said byebye to sean and fishman to go ALL THE WAY to cowes where we crashed a 60's birthday party. it was funnnnnnn. brandon came down after a while and all of us (ida, idas mum, fred, joe, peter, brandon, me) were standing on the dancefloor and dancing to songs like "never gonna give you up", "i dont feel like dancing" and "uptown girl". it was great. ida and her mum left at nine or ten, fred and peter left around half eleven and the rest of us left at half twelve. joe took a taxi home and me and brandon took the bus back to mine. :)

murgh, yesterday was a bad day. brandon and fred were angry at me (and i deserved it).. so they were ignoring all my calls and shizzle and i got sad so i walked around in newport crying for a while, before i bought a whiteboard&whiteboards pens and then went to ryde and found two pairs of EPIC shoes. im in love. meehee. after ryde me and sofie went back to newport and met up with bc and fred and joe at mcd. we sat down until six o clock when i went to dinner with ida and her mum at olivo's which is an amazing restaurant (mmmmmmmmmmmmitalian food). trololololol

IT IS SNOWING ! on the isle of wight. in november. ITS SNOWING. im so happiiiiiiiiiii. seriously. i shouldnt be excited cuz it snows in sweden every year. BUT HELL YEAH ITS SNOWING :D

as you may know fred and brandon are probably moving to sweden next year, the only problem here is that they dont have anywhere to live or any jobs. so if you know someone who can help us with this PLEASE TELL ME ! i would appreciate it so much. like owe you forever. it doesnt have to be give us a house and a job, but if you have any contacts that might be useful, throw. them. in. my. face. <3 THANKS PÅ FÖRHAND

ive decided to sleep in tomorrow.. because i think that i deserve it. so ill prepare something sweet and epic for you and this blog for tomoz "morning". and well yesyesyes. im happier now btw. because i skyped with freddi and fred and bc arent ignoring me anymore (hehe). and well yes. iuno. i suppose its the flummigness that comes when you get tired (Y)

murgh, tonight didnt work out the way i wanted to. i think im gonna hide under a couple of duvets and watch movies until i fall asleep. mmmmmmmmmmmmarabou. any movie suggestions? im thinking about these :

- en kärlekshistoria
- cry baby
- RENT
- remember me

hej glada och fina fredag. today is muftiday. a FREAKIN FANTASTIC day. we are allowed to wear jeans and hats in school. yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey. hihi. i was wearing my denim brace trousers to school (Y) made me happi. and well nothing special happened in school.. fred was working in the morning and i had photography (i have no idea what everyone else was doing). but after lunch i had study periods with hannah and we sat in the library talking to our librarian, mr waterhouse (who added me on facebook :D), and discussing movies and books and schoolsystems and shizzle. is nice !

tjenna tjejen. du vet det där fina kortet som du skickade? tack så mycket för det :) jag blev jätteglad :D det står på mitt skrivbord och jag sparar på tuggummit genom att bara äta ett per dag ;) jag saknar dig och våra flumtider JÄTTEMASSA så vi MÅSTE ses när jag är hemma. är det en date? vad sägs som 21a eller 22a ? pussss fina du. älskar dig

 

now you see how easy it is to entertain me. give me some childish toys and i can play for hours (Y)

because im bored. and i like looking at rainbows.

katie is taking photography in school and she's in year 13 (The year above me, which is the last year) and for her final piece she is making an alice in wonderland inspired photoshoot. Just like Vogue has done and she is using vogue as her inspiration and the pictures sure are amazing. look !

heey guys, ive had such a bad day. i dont know why but it just felt like shit... until i got home and had so much fun eating dinner. i love my hostfamily. but i have had some good things happening today. and i just love katie for being amazing. HEY KATIE IF YOU SEE THIS. I LOVE YOU <3 anyways. i gotta make some blogposts and check all the stupid things i always check out as soon as i go on the computer and then ill do some photography :D loves you xxxxx

the last part of the thirty day challenge. and i cant choose one thing. so ill just put a few here.

meeehee i was locked out before and it was HORRIBLE. no not really.. but it was cold. and well.. yea it was cold. humhumhumblehumlahumlahuhauhu jag har tråkigt (translation: i have bored) anyways, i should do some psychology because miss will kill me if i havent done my ässäjjjjj but i dont want to. i want to write letters and make useless blogposts on tumblr and shit like that. mmmmmmmmmmarabou. im gonna go now. cuz im borrrredd laugh, kyss och smek. det är inte någon lek. (FÄTT RIMMIGT!)

chaaa. im at mcd at the moment with fred and sean and peter. ive helped fred with joining the the stupid queue to an apartment.. and im gonna talk to my daddy tonight about putting fred and brandon in his apartment queue. i think that they deserve one. they are my friends. they can have my future apartment. cuz i know that ill get one at some point in my life. so if i choose to give it to them it shouldnt be a problem.. should it ? i mean i can live there aswell. hummmm

OFF TO SCHOOL THEN

mitt hjärta.

woopwoop wednesday (WOW already?! feels like måndag...) and im sitting in my room typing down my essay that i havent handed in yet. hehe. it suxx cuz i really need to hand it in today but i dont think that ill get it done. stupid foreign exchange student. -.-

they told me after i got my birthday present that there were more videos but that they just couldnt get hold of them, because the internet werent working entirely and so on.. but i got to see them anyway. and now im sharing them with you! elin&chibbis, sofi, izza and cissi. (i still havent gotten jossis or pelles... but as soon as i get them ill put them up here)

okay ive got it now. (för jag är fätt busig). so me and hannah came to my house and there were balloons on the door (which kind of gave it away but i was happy anyway). and i walked in to the house, in to the kitchen where suddenly everyone jumped out and screamed happy birthday and popping partypoppers. it made me smile cuz everyone (ida, sofie, lilly, jana, peter, fred, ilyas, lennart, joe, aiden, stephen, carrieann, sue, jasmine, bill, reb ax, dale, david, my hostfamily) was there and i just had to hug everyone.

and after hugging ida forced me to sit down looking at her computer and watch a video of BC saying something like "heeeey carro, happy birthday. im sorry that i cant be there.. but to make it up to you i have a few surprises. first i know how much you miss sweden so i decided to bring a bit of sweden to you and i want you to turn around, not now but soon. so here it comes. happy birthday carro, loves you"  and then they showed me videos of lovisa, kibby, mucho and josse saying happy birthday to me. they made me smile and i was happi

 

One hour back in time by CFMDanielson

after that there was another video of brandon telling me about what was going to happen next (i dont remember what he said, but he mentioned a song by fredrik) and the next thing that happened was that i got to hear fredrik singing a song he made for me. it was so beautiful and meeh i miss him.
and then there was another video of kibby and mucho saying "happy birthday again carro, one last happy birthday. it sucks that we're not there with you right now.. so we have a last surprise for you.. we thought that we should make it up to you that we aren't there.. so why don't you look behind you... happy birthday"

AND WHEN I TURNED AROUNF THEY WERE STANDING BEHIND ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!! !!! !! !!!!!  !! !  mindblown. implosion. woaaa spåra gal1!!!! eh ja. I WAS SO HAPPI and i couldnt stop smiling. and then everyone started drinking and listening to music and dancing and having a great time. so i didnt just get an awesome party i got the best birthdaypresent possible. EPIC. and i just cant thank brandon and fred (framför allt) and ida and hannah and everyone else enough for this epic day. i couldnt stop smiling. and it was fantastic. a real party, with good music, with my friends and my swedes, dancing and drinking and just having a great time. and brandon, kibby and muco stayed at mine. and that didnt make the day worse ;)

uäääh jag har varit hos fred efter skolan med honom och brandon och meningen var att jag skulle plugga och lära dem svenska. men dem kunde för fan inte koncentrera sig så det slutade med att jag var så uttråkad att jag försökte somna och när inte det funkade så satte jag mig och pratade med freds kanin. efter ett tag insåg dem att dem behövde mig så jag och brandon fick springa till ica och köpa cola och chips så att vi kunde se på "im a celebrity get me out of here". humhum. efter det mycketmycket underhållande tvprogrammet tog jag och brandon bussen hem och nu sitter jag här och har precis skrivit världshistoriens längsta meddelande till sofi på fb. det var så långt att jag var tvungen att dela upp det i två (Y) lyllo dig sofi ^^ hehe

IM OFF TO SCHOOL NOW! PUSS

today is tuesday and all i have to do is photography. and i havent done that. because i suck. so i am working my ass off over here. and i wish for some company and warmth. as if that would happen........

Finally done with that. Okay. So my birthday.... Wellwellwell. Lets just say that it began at 07.00 when I woke up to go to school. I answered some texts, spoke to my hostfamily for a bit and went to school. I was all alone all the way to school. But when I finally got there Ida ran up to me and gave me a big birthdayhug. I went to registration. Sat down and waited for people to come. People said happy birthday to me and eventually Hannah got there and she gave me a birthday hug aswell. I had photography after registration, and it was a bore. I just couldn't wait for it to end. During break I went to the canteen and I met all my friends who congratulated me and made me smile. After photography I went home, took a shower and packed my bags. I went back to school and met up with Hannah. We were sitting in school for a while so I decided to take the oportunity to skype with my friends back in Sweden. I spoke to Freddi, Ellen, Anna, Sofia and my family. It made me happy and we were able to move on in "our" plan.

Hannah's mission was to entertain me until 19.00... when the big birthday surprise was about to begin. We went to Hannahs hostfamily after school and while she was in the shower I was looking threw my email and hanging out on the computer. And guess what I found if not this video:

 

A happy birthday video made by sofia, ellen and freddi. with my whole class from sweden singing happ birthday for me. a scene from my favourite tvshow and pictures from my favourite cafe (sandys<3), grönan, my summerhouse, skipping school, random schooldays, summers in stockholm, reunion with freddi this summer, swimming at 06.00 at my summerhouse this summer. It made me cry out of missing and happiness. Thank you.

 

Short after this I skyped with Fredrik and it was amazing to talk to him. We sound like a married couple sometimes, arguing all the time and then laughing at nothing. Hannah skyped with Matt and we went to Staples to say hi to Stephen and then go to Hongkong express to get food. We ate and at 19.00 it was okay for us to walk back to mine so that I could change and get ready for the "epic party that I didnt know off" (I did know about it, I just didnt know where or who or when or how or anything like that).......... TO BE CONTINUED

My christmas brake comes first so I'll tell you about that one instead. I want to spend one or two days on the island, then go back to sweden and spend christmas with all my friends and my family. I want to meet up with all of you to give you hugs until you cant breathe anymore. I want to spend time with you and talk to you and just be close to you. I fucking need that. And i want you to smile. I want you to be happy. And I wish the brake was longer so that I could spend more time at home. Because seven days aren't enough. I dont think Ive realised how much I miss home until Mucho and Kristina got here. So for christmas all I want is to come home and see everyone again. After three months. And after spending way to little time home I want to come back here and spend the last days of my christmas break with all my friends over here. And be drunk and avoid missing home. Cuz I wont be able to not miss you when I get back.

But please understand this, even though I miss my friends and family at home like crazy I would never want to go home. Because I love this place and I love my friends here. And I know that when Im in Sweden all I'll want is to be back here. And I will miss this year so much when i come back to Sweden. I just wish that all my swedish friends could move here or that all my friends over here could move to Stockholm. That would complete my life and I would be happy for ever. Because I love you.

21th november challenge. in no specific order at all:

20th november, Describe what it feels like for you to have a crush/be in love.

Ive never ever ever been in love with someone. But for me love is something incredible and fantastic and i dont think that youll ever lose your feelings for your first love. To have a crush on someone is nowhere near as serious as being in love with someone. Not for me. And I cant explain how I feel when I have a crush on someone. Because I will sound like a fourteen year old, talking about butterflies and hearts that floats around. But lets just say that its fucking amazing and shit at the same time.

2nd november - moving to Asma and Peter
3rd november - school and hanging with frieends
4th november - school and hanging with friends, giving bc scrubs </3
5th november - school, mcd, bonfire night at chalk pits and my phone died
6th november - cinema, epic adventures in town and bc stayed at mine
7th november - hanging with bc and studying
8th november - school......... mcd..
9th november - school, studying..
10th november - school......
11th november - schoool......... lame
12th november - tutorreview day (no school), celebrating michael
13th november - movienight at freds and hanging in litten
14th november - watching movie with fred and studying with ida
15th november - school, saying bye to bc
16th november - school, studying with fred
17th november - robs birthday, coffee republic and mcd
18th november - school and moving back
19th november - my birthday
20th november - hanging in town and watching harry potter
21th november - showing the swedes back to sweden, hanging with hannah and ida
22nd november - school, studying, getting internet back

hahaha, im so sorry for the terrible update but i havent had internet untill tonight ! i will do my best to tell you everything.. but i have shit loads of homework to do so i guess ill have to be QUICK! recap of the weeks ive been in hiding ? YES !!!

i wonder if there are any pictures of me not supersuper happy smiling. hihi perfect for my bday, RIGHT!

okay lets get into woopwoop mood. ITS MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY TOMORROW. and my amazing friends have been planning some secret thing for me and my birthday. I have absolutely no clue about what it is and its sooooo annoying. anyway. im so happy and i cant look forward to this more than i do. LOVE YOU

http://www.yearsofmylife.blogg.se - mucho mannen den allra finaste.

It's rob (aka my familytree twin)'s birthday today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRATTIS ROB :D Hihi and he is having a "picnic" in litten after school and everyone is supposed to dress up.... Och vi har bestämt oss för att vi alla ska klä ut oss till rob på olika sätt och vis ;) jag ska vara nunna-rob ;)))))))))) and I have to go to school soon but I don't want to get out of my warm bed (sadface) Murgh:. Pussssssssszzzzz

ill be going home soon, to study and to sleep. and i dont know.. decide what to wear tomoz ;) hehe. aaaaaaaand i dont know. im tired. and happy. and my friends are keeping secrets from me. and i gotta be a ninja tomoz. cuz its robs bday and im gonna be ninja-rob. hihi. IM HAPPIIIIIIIII

IDAG HAR JAG VAR IT I SKOL AN OCH DET HAR VART KUL ! JAG HAR IN TE PLUGG AT OCH JAG HAR LEKT MED MIN A KOMP IS AR ! FEZD

heeeey friends. im at freds today. we are having learningtuesdays with brandon and fred.. but without brandon... sadface. right fred? yeea. we miss you bc.  so we are starting our extreme studing in 10 minutes. woopwoop. kyss

1. DORIS
2. a giraffe. it would be perfect for my collection of tree giraffes that i havent started yet
3. a tiger - ive always wanted a tiger.
4. dolphinsssssssssss
5. dinousaurs.

tuesdays from now on is going to be epic. i am forcing brandon and fred to hang out with me every tuesday after school. Brandon to learn swedish and make videoblogs and Fred so that he actually will do some homework. He needs it.. trust me. he almost got kicked out of school twice.

eeerrm.. since i dont use make-up its hard to tell.. and the only thing i sue for my hair is shampoo and conditioner.. sooooooo I suppose trésemme.. its amasing. :) and when sofi used tresemme shampoo at home kristina got sad and started missing me everytime she hugged sofi. <3

the book about chichi the panda is still one of my favourite books. i loved that book when i was little and i will never ever throw it away.

so tonight, saturday.. we are at freds and we are about to have a movienight... its me, ida, brandon, fred, hannah, sofie and stephen. and well yea... WOOPWOOP

yehey.

winter:   
1. to begin with im thinking swedish winter now and the best thing about winter is - SNOW!
2. christmas and new years. two of the best things about winter......
3.......and with christmas comes LUSSEBULLAR ! the best and most amazing thing in the world.
4.......and with new years comes FYRVERKERIER!
5.  skiing on the christmas break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

spring:   
1. i love spring, it gets warm after the winter again and the sun comes out and the flowers start to grow. i just love it.
2. you have all of the warmth of the summer coming.
3. you still believe that you will be able to keep those new years promises. stupid naive people.
4. everyone falls in love with each other.
5. sportlov, påsklov, kristihimmelsfärd, 1st of may, 1st of april.

summer:
1. its warm. its fun. its happy.
2. summer means sommarlov. and during that means no school. FEKKE
3. spending endless hours with friends and family at home/ at the summerhouse/ other amazing places.
4. festivals.
5. the days never end.

fall:       
1. its called fall because the leaves fall of the trees
2. my birthday is during the fall
3. you can play with all the leaves that fall of the treest and rains, a lot. and i love playing in the rain
4. höstlov, halloween.
5. you have an excuse to sit inside all day long and watch movies and drink tea.
- and remember, the stupid americans call it fall. here in england we say autumn.

its my birthday in exactly a week!!!!!!!!!!!
hey today is just another friday. or wait its fucking friday today! WOA . i hope we are doing something fun. cuz i have half a bottle of wine, half a bottle of vodka and a can of beer that is waiting for me to drink them. doesnt that sound like a lot of fun ? getting drunk with your friends one week before your birthday. FEKKE.

this is a hard one, many things moves me.. humhumhum. things that always moves me is when people stand up for someone and do epic things for each other. When people act morally and without self interest ;)

im at mcd again.. i cant stand being without computer for too long ;) hehe. so i have to go here once in a while and make sure that i update you and update myself. im on the fisk i dusjen chat for the first time in a week and that feels GOOD! i have done almost all my homeworks aswell, so im HAPPI :)

hihi. my purse is huge and its always full of shit. if we dont count the schoolbooks, camera and laptop that sometimes travels in the bag i always carry around a singleuse camera, wallet, buspass, portable charger (<3), a brush (because i never know when ill run into brandon :P), a small notebook (to make lists and "loppor"), day planner, a pen, portable harddrive, mittens, random stuff.... i dont know. think thats it. but somedays i dont even bring my purse so it changes.

challenge 16, 10th of november.

considering the fact that i have no idea what i want for my birthday (the 19th november) its hard to say want i want for christmas.. i havent really thought about it. and i am quite satisfied with my life..

I hate waking up. Murgh.. But I have to get up now, school starts in 40 minutes :) and I have Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo idea what is happening. I light break the rules and hang out with Bc and fred ;) pussssss

13th challenge, today (9th november)

Challenge 12, the 7th of november. This one is hard, I have many stories to tell.. Most of them involve very little clothing and a heavy amount of water (according to captain fred-talking from experience, but i suppose its true). Humhum..

im back. internet. mcdonalds. and later on freds place with fred and brandon to plan their life in sweden. woopwoop :) dont have that much batteries but ill do my best to update this thing ;)

challenge 10, 5th november.. TODAY !

if i could choose i would like to be travelling around the world, with my bestfriends and my boyfriend that im defenitely gonna have at that time. we wont care about money, we will drink a lot of alcohol and just enjoy life. i dont know where the hell ill be educational/workwise.. but i just couldnt care less.

4th november, challenge 9.
since ive got two homes at the moment (or three..) im gonna do the two most important. my hostfamilys and my swedish home.

ENGLAND
1. my conker collection.. i have over 200. (conkers = kastanjer)
2. a half done garden
3. a zebra/giraffe bowl made of wood
4. beds with wheels (they are great for sexx)
5. banalows (banana pillows)
6. everything in the house has an indian theme
7. a gate to my room. (not great for sexx(it should be a door), but ill give it a go)
8. bathrooms without locks on the doors.
9. I N T E R N E T
10. an awesome host family.. (or no right i forgot.. they're in india)

since i havent had internet i havent been able to put up the 30 day challenge posts, so im gonna do all of them now :) or some of them. so lets begin with the ones ive missed.

number 8. (3 november)

happiness. im at macdonalds and i have access to internet for the first time in four days. hihi. im pathetic but i dont care. och nu ska jag göra massa tidsinställda inlägg som ni kan njuta av varje dag. i knew there was a reason for my love to macdonalds. 

Snopp. It seems like i wont get internet until i get back to my hostfamily.. Which is in 14 days. So the eighteenth or maybe the nineteenth.. And don't you dare forget my birthday. 19 NOVEMBER. I m p o r t a n t.

I'm sorry for not updating my blog today.. I haven't had time to go get internet but I'll do it toz. And I will do the challenge.. It's just gonna be a bit late. Or the picture parts will be ;) hehe. Today has been a good day. First school and then hanging out with my friends in town. You gotta love them. THX FOR MAKING MY DAY GUYS <3 I think I'm gonna go to sleep now. Bye and love you all xxxxxxx

I was just on my way to put up the next post of the 30 say challenge when I realised that I can't upload pictures to my blog from this thing. I have to find out another way of doing it! Mission impossible.............

Okay guys, I know you've been worried. But I'm alive. I have no internet so I'm barely alive. But I am alive and I have just eaten dinner and yea. Woopwoop lixom. Peter lives here aswell so I'm not alone :) and the new "family" contains Asma and Asma only. She's lovely as a real englishman would say. Or she's a babe. Pick a favourite :)))))))) I don't know what to do since I don't have any internet... Maybe do my homeworks..... For once (Hihi) and I'm extremely happy that I haven't give away my scrubs to Brandon yet. I need it tonight. Cuz I'm definetly getting Internet tomoz. I don't care what it takes, I can't live without it. Embarrasing isn't it ;) pusssśšśś

this will be the last post before i move to my temporary family. i know nothing about this people, i dont know how old they are, how many they are, if they have internet, where in newport they live, how to get there, if another student lives there. the only thing i know is that its somewhere in newport.

im extremely nervous, freaked out and a bit sad at the moment. i just want to know who it is. cuz not knowing is so annoying. fml. and i have so much homework to do. and i just really dont want to move... even if its "just for two weeks". id rather live alone for two weeks or go back to sweden. murgh.

i suppose this is something you should ask my parents and not me, but ill give it a go.

okej, nu har jag lagt fram alla dem grejerna som ska ner i väskan och imorgon kommer jag lägga dem där i och sedan stänga den för att typ aldrig mera öppna den. jag ser inte fram emot morgondagen. inte alls. jag hoppas att ni är lyckliga och önskar alla en god jul i förskott. nu ska jag plugga lite mer fotografi.. yeey ^^

heeey, im so tired and i have so many things to do. next stop shower, then packing, then study, then bed. FML. i have no idea where the hell i will be at this time tomorrow. sound like fun? well i dont think so........

woopwoop, im in school having philosophy at the moment. then its lunch and psychology and after all of that shit im gonna go home and pack my bag for india and study. cuz i love to study. LML (not) . im gonna go steal a hug from someone cuz im a bit sad :/

here is a few random videos from the last days.

ice skating in ryde

 

me being raped (and fraped) by my so called friends

 

fred and aiden had a nice time in brandons bed, until they broke it